There is a concept in Islam that Allah is to you, how you think of Him. If you think of Him as One who loves, Allah will love you. If you think of Him as One who punishes, everything that happens in your life will look like a punishment to you. Many people don't understand the idea behind this- you are not changing Allah by thinking of Him in any way; you are changing your own mindset and that is the key to changing your whole life. If you think good of Allah, you will see the good in every situation you are faced with. If you think of Allah as though He is away from you, as if He has abandoned you then everything that happens in your life will only reinforce this idea. What you think in your head is what you will feed to your heart. If you want to be better than this, start by feeding positivity into your mind. Allah is Above anything else, but He is also closer to you then your jugular vein. He is Just in His ways, but He is also the Most Loving.