EN: Saint Sophrony Saharov – „Saint Silouan the Athonite”, p. 40 „The soul that has known God, that has been raised to contemplation of the world of eternal light, and then has lost grace, find herself in a state unimaginable to anyone ignorant of all this to the same extent. There are no words to express the suffering and sorrow. The soul experiences a pelicular metaphysical pain. This world contains nothing that could captivate one who has seen the light of unoriginate being, who has experienced the fulness, the joy and inexpressible sweetness of Divine love. Somehow earthly life becomes burdensome, joyless, and weeping, he seeks again the life that was given to him to touch upon. The husband who has lost his beloved wife, or the mother her precious son, can but partially understand the grief of one who has lost grace, since its incomparable beauty and might vastly transcend every sort of human love. This is why St. John Climacus says the suffering of those who have lost grace exceeds the suffering of men condemned to death or of them that weep over their dead.”