Admin hide my ID (UNZA) I need to let this off my chest because it’s really eating me alive. So I have this girlfriend, she’s a very bubbly and fun person, always full of jokes and very open minded. From the start of our relationship she always spoke about exploring new things, and I guess that’s what made her different, I fell for her energy. One day she brought up the idea of a thr€es0me. She wanted us to add another guy. I wasn’t comfortable, but I also didn’t want to lose her or seem insecure, so I agreed. She made all the arrangements, brought the guy, and it happened. I won’t lie, it hurt watching her enjoy another man like that, but I convinced myself I was doing it for love. I thought after that we were done experimenting. But a few months later, she brought it up again. This time, she said she wanted to take it further, a f0urs0me, and this time thr€e guys with just her. I was shocked. She said it like it was nothing, as if I didn’t matter. She even brought them to the house without warning. One of the guys was from the previous thr€es0me, and the other was new. And yes… it happened. All thr€e of us went on h€r while she seemed to enjoy every second of it. I just stood there after, numb. That moment broke something inside me. She tells me she loves me, that I’m her only true partner and the others mean nothing. But what kind of love looks like this? Now I don’t even know who I am anymore. I look at her and feel like I’ve become just a pawn in whatever fantasy she’s chasing. I don’t want to judge her, but I also don’t know if I can carry on like this. It feels like I gave away pieces of myself trying to hold on to someone who’s already too far gone. Does this still count as love, or have I just lost myself in someone else’s game?