I’m a pastor. I married my wife as a virgin and she was a virgin too. I made a vow to God and to myself, I wouldn’t give my body to sin or marry someone who had. My wife and I are a perfect match. We pray together, fast together, study the Word, and serve in ministry side by side. I love her deeply. After God the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit, she’s next in my heart. But something happened recently. There’s this first timer that came to my church. Usually, after service I meet with all the first timers and pray with them but this young lady begged to see me privately. The body of Christ is always looking to expand so I agreed. In my office, she broke down in tears, confessing that she was a runs girl who wanted to leave her old life behind and follow Christ. I was moved by her sincerity. I prayed with her, led her to Christ, and took it upon myself to follow up with her spiritual growth. That was how it started. At first, everything was about faith—prayers, Bible verses, and encouragement. Written by Ajebo Writer. But as time passed, we became… close. Too close. She would call me during the day, even more than my wife did. In the evenings, when I was home with my family, she’d text just to check in. I wouldn’t lie, I love the attention and care she has been showing me. After all I’m flesh and bones. Ajebo Writer. I found myself looking forward to her messages. Her conversations felt easy, different. Unlike my wife, who only talks about Church and spirituality, and frankly it has gotten boring. This girl brought humor, passion, and attention. I know I shouldn’t say this, but with her, I felt seen as a man, not just a pastor. A few weeks ago, she invited me to her birthday. I went there intending to pray with her but when I arrived, it was just the two of us. She told me all her friends are runs girls and bad boys so she cut off and I’m her only friend. After I prayed and gave her the gift I brought, out of excitement she hugged me—then kissed me. A deep, intense French kiss. I’ve only kissed two women in my life: my first girlfriend (before I found Christ) and my wife. Neither kissed me like she did. I should have pulled away. I should have rebuked the devil. But I didn’t. I kissed her back. I don’t know if it was the months of fasting or the built-up tension, but I gave in. We eventually had segz. I prayed and asked God for forgiveness after we finished. But the truth is, I felt guilty… for about an hour. Then I remembered the way she kissed me, svcked me, fvcked me—raw, passionate, wild! Now, we’ve been having segz almost every day—my office, my car, her kitchen, even in the church. Yes, the altar. The same altar where I stand to preach holiness. I know it’s wrong. I know I should stop. But the truth? I don’t want to. I never knew segz could happen outside the bedroom until this girl. She does things to me I never imagined possible. My life has been very exciting and adventurous and I even preach with more passion than ever. The pleasure is too sweet, sweeter than the guilt of sin. My wife. She suspects nothing. She trusts me completely. Ajebo Writer… But lately, I feel bad for her. She’s a good woman so I want to tell her we should try other styles asides missionary every time. Since we got married I’m always on top, straightforward and ‘holy.’ No creativity, no adventure, No spark. But this girl has shown me things I never imagined were possible. I didn’t know segz could be like this—she has been riding me in-fact I’ve only been on-top once with her. She’s always ontop or I’m behind taking it from the back like a dog How do I bring up the conversation with my wife about our segz life? How do I, a pastor, ask my wife, a devoted woman of God to svck me. And what if she asks me how I knew to desire or ask these things? I don’t want to be like Adam when God asked, “Who told you you were naked?” What do I do? How do I tell my wife, in a godly and Christian way, that I’m no longer satisfied with our segz life and we should spice it up so I can finally stop committing sin with my church member How do I break free from this sin when every part of me doesn’t want to? Please advise me without insulting me The End Ajebo Writer ©️Kingdavid Chinaeke Ofunne