TIDE'S OF LÛST EPISODE 83 I woke up the next morning feeling so drained and exhausted from the events of the previous night. Of course y'all know how it went. I laid in bed feeling reluctant to prepare for work. Sandra didn't spare me any chance to sleep, it was as if she intentionally came fully prepared for the show. At some point she started riding me, and she still wasn't tired, I wonder what is the source of her strength. I was still on the bed lost in thoughts, when Sandra's loud yawning interrupted my thoughts. “Dont swallow me oh madam”.........I teased, and she slapped my chest playfully. “Good morning my royal stallion”.........She greeted. My head swelled with pride when I heard her called me a royal stallion. Of course I deserve the nickname, I indeed rode her with so much strength and vigour, all through the night. “Goodmorning my sunshine, hope you slept well?”..........I inquired, smiling broadly. “Sure I did, all thanks to you.......by the way, why are you still in bed? You ought to have been getting ready for work by now”.........She said with concern. “Yeah I know, but I'm so tired right now and it's because of you........I just hope I don't sleep through out work hours”.........I sneered contemptuously, and Sandra started laughing. “See you, if you as a man is complaining of being tired, what will me that is a woman, complain about?”........She said sarcastically. “lets not go down that lane, you and I know perfectly well that I did the bigger job”........I retorted. “Okay, okay, I agree.......you did the whole work last night, apologies my royal stallion, please get up and prepare for work”..........She demanded, playfully pushing me away from the bed. I reluctantly stood up from the bed, and dragged myself towards the bathroom so as to have my bath. After bathing, I started dressing up with the help of Sandra, and I left for work. Sandra already told me the previous day that she was going to stay till Wednesday, so before leaving the house I told her that if she feels bored, she could come around my office. On our way to the office, I appreciated Vida for cooperating with me the previous day, when I almost had issues with Sandra because of the soup and stew Evelyn prepared. Vida waved it off and told me that I should better be careful. I also apologized to her on Sandra's behalf about the whole moaning and groaning she did the previous night. Vida told me that she knew that it was going to happen between Sandra and I, so she just waited until we were done with our intimate moment, before she slept. Later in the day, Sandra came into my office with Vida, Cynthia was on seat when Vida and Sandra came in, so I had to introduce Sandra to her as my girlfriend.. I was busy with some work so I didn’t really have time for Vida and Sandra. They eventually left after staying for a few minutes while I continued with the work I had at hand. After Vida and Sandra left the office, Cynthia cleared her throat to get my attention, but being that I already knew she was out to gossip, I ignored her. I finished the work earlier than expected. By lunch time, I went down to Vida's section and I met Sandra there and we all went out to eat. After we had lunch, I went back to the office and took permission to leave for a while. I left the office with Sandra, while Vida stayed back at her office. When Sandra and I got home, we met the two girls, on sighting us, they hushed whatever they were discussing. I couldn’t understand the reason for their actions any time I was around. It was so obvious that Sandra noticed it and had to ask me what was wrong with them, I told her that I didn’t know, that they have been that way since they packed in. When Sandra and I got into my apartment, I took off my clothes, and wore something casual, then I laid on the bed. After some minutes, Sandra started a conversation that I had always been afraid of discussing with her. “There is something that I have been wanting to discuss with you, let me just say it’s one of the reasons I came because it’s not something I prefer talking over the phone with you”.........she muttered in a low tone, sitting up on the bed. “Okay, what is that?”........I replied. She cleared her throat and stared at me for some moment before spilling it out. “What plans do you have for us? I mean, does the future hold anything for us? Are we just dating for the sake of dating and mating? When you think about your future do you see me in it?”...........She asked the questions breathlessly. Thoughts of what the future holds or who I would settle down with has never crossed my mind. In actual sense the word “marriage” is one dreaded word I always try to disassociate myself from. I don’t know why I was so afraid of it, though I know it’s inevitable and is something I must get involved with. On the other hand, I never expected that a question like this will come up between me and any of the girls. I have always hidden in the pretext of taking it ‘one step at a time’ to cover the fear that eludes me when this questions gets involved, but now I am face to face with it. I heaved a big sigh, releasing the air that has been trapped inside of me. While I was lost in thoughts, Sandra had her eyes glued on me and that made me more uncomfortable and confused. Getting my thoughts together, I turned towards Sandra and smiled, before giving her my response. “Sandra, I am going to be very sincere with you, very very sincere........The thought of settling down in future is one thought I have always closed my mind to. Why I am so afraid of it, I don’t know but thinking of marriage and who to settle down with has not crossed my mind yet” “It’s something I believe will sort itself out when the time comes. I don’t know if you are in my plans in future or not, but at this moment, I know I have you and that is where my mind is” “If we are able to work this through to the future, then we can decide what we want to make out of it. I don’t know if this makes any sense to you, but this is the most sincere answer I can give you right now”..........I finished speaking. “Then I guess for this moment we are just dating and mating with no plans for each other right?”.........She mumbled, with a sober tone. “We aren’t just mating Sandra, I truly love you and you know it”.........I said sincerely. “I don’t know anything Pascal.......if you don’t see me in your future, then we are just fûck mates. I think about us every single time, I dream about us ending up together........This thing we have means something to me. I see us beyond this service year, I see us in the next 10years together”...........She spoke, with a tone of gravity. “Sandra I love you and believe me, there is nothing I will desire more than having you with me when that time comes. That I don’t think about the future with you, doesn’t mean I don’t wish for it. But what if I start building this hope and tomorrow it all burns into flames?”...........I uttered solemnly. “What do you mean by burning into flames?”........She asked. “I mean what if after setting out and planning the future with you and in the nearest future, we happen not to be together. How do you think that will fare with me? Sandra I love you and I will want us to work this through step by step” “Remember we never knew we will end up here together. So let’s just do our best and leave the rest for God. If we are destined to be together, then definitely we will”...........I outlined. “Pascal, people make plans.......It’s when you make plans, pray and work towards it that things falls into place for you. Nature or God can’t fix what we didn’t plan to fix for ourselves, that’s what I believe........No matter what faith we have, without good work it’s all in vain and no matter the good work we engage in without faith, I don’t think that works miracles either”..........She elaborated. “Let me ask you something, did we plan to serve in this area? Look back to how it happened”.........I mentioned. “At least we had a plan and even worked towards it. God must have seen our efforts and maybe knows that Accra wouldn’t have been good for us and decided to bring us down here. Pascal don’t get me wrong, I am not trying to tie you down and force myself on you. There is a recent development which prompted me to ask and know where I stand with you”..........She said with restraint. “What is the development?”..........I asked curiously. “I would be going outside the country for my masters when we are done with service year.......I got a letter of admission from Robert Gordon University last week, and I don’t want to leave here without someone I am sure of coming back to......Don’t get me wrong, I am not desperate, but I don’t want to leave without making sure that we are committed to each other”.........She muttered, her voice trembling. “You never told me about your masters plan”........I said, more like a question. “Yeah I know, it’s just something that came up unexpectedly”.........She replied. “Sandra service year just started. The truth is that I don’t even know my plans after service year.......Whether I am furthering my education or looking for a job, I don’t know. This is how confused I am of the future, but it seems you have everything planned out for yourself. Now you have pricked my conscience and I am going to do a whole lot of thinking, so please just give me some time to think my life through”..........I pleaded with her. “Seriously, now I know I have a very confused boyfriend......Well, just know that I love you and I’m willing to stay by your side if you want me to, even though you don’t have a plan for the future yet, I know you are a wonderful guy and will be great. You just need to think things through and know what you want”..........she remarked, placing a light kiss on my forehead. I relaxed back to the bed with lots of thought running through my mind. After further discussions between us, she left to the kitchen to prepare something for us to eat. To be continued.............