
Eccedentesiast's Thoughts 💭
June 13, 2025 at 02:30 PM
For a long time, fear was the loudest voice in my head. It shaped my choices, influenced my relationships, and even kept me from doing the things I loved. I didn’t realize how much power I had given to my worries until I started questioning all the what ifs I used to carry. My what ifs were never about what could go right—they were always about what could go wrong. What if I fail? What if I look foolish? What if I get hurt?
So, I stayed in my comfort zone. I told myself I was being careful, protecting myself from pain. But what I didn’t see at the time was that I was also protecting myself from growth, from discovery, from joy. At some point, something shifted. I started asking a new question: What if I’m missing out on something beautiful by being so afraid?
Slowly, I began facing the things that scared me—not the reckless things that could actually harm me, but the things I wanted to do deep down. The ones that whispered to me in quiet moments: Say no. Walk away first. Speak up. Let yourself be seen.
Each of those used to feel terrifying. But every time I leaned into the discomfort instead of running from it, I found strength I didn’t know I had. And now? I’m not afraid of what’s ahead anymore. I don’t know exactly what the future holds, and I’ve accepted that it might not look the way I expect. But I’ve realized something far more important: I would rather truly experience life—with all its ups and downs—than spend my days just trying to stay safe.
I’m learning to live, not just survive.