https://chat.whatsapp.com/HJJrWB9CmGzLRfik6RGXzP *Maprevious chapters anowanikwa kuchannel not kuinbox kwemunyori saka huya kuchannel dear* https://whatsapp.com/channel/0029Vb5AfX4EKyZNcqdXEb1q *😔 PAINFUL FORGIVENESS😔* _Family means no one gets left behind or forgotten_ Written by Coco🦋🖤 *CHAPTER 1️⃣ 8️⃣ AND 1️⃣ 9️⃣* CHAPTER 18 *Mai Mike* Mazuva akafamba zvawo ndiri pamba pangu, Brian haana kuzokwanisa kuuya day raanga akataura coz hameno kubasa kwavo kwakazonzi wee. So ndanga ndiri ndega hangu, ehe ndaizama zvangu kusafungisisa but zvakangooma kunzi muroyi nemwana wako wawakabereka. Bp yangu yanga isina kutozodzika though ndaingonwa mapills acho daily asi makumbo angu anga achiri akazvimba, ese nemaoko acho anga atozvimbawo. Ndaingoswera ndakazvivharira muroom mangu, phone yangu ndiyo yaitombondivaraidza asi dzimwe dzenguva ndaiguma ndadzokera pamashoko andakaudzwa naTawanda. Kana mazogara musatambe nemashoko ekunzi uri muroyi achibva kumwana wako, ehe chero vanhu vemuroad vakakutuka or vekunze uko, unogona kubatikana but akabva kumwana wako anonyatso baya pamoyo. Dzimwe dzenguva ndaiti ndikatarisa mapictures ari kumadziro ndofunga mwana wangu Mike, nhaimi aive aripi, chibviro chake anga asina kuzombotaura neni futi. Ndaiti ndikafunga mashoko emurume wangu ekupedzisira mumazuva ake ekufa, ndainzwa kubatikana nemabatiro andaive ndoita mwana wangu kuri kuedza kufadza vatengi. Asi chero zvikanzi ndimutsvage ndaimuwanepi nekukura kwayo Harare, plus ndaitozvirwarirawo zvangu, ukuwo pamwe anga asiri muHarare macho asi zvakaoma mufunge. Chikafu ndaitongobika ka1, ko ndanga ndichazvikwanisa here zvekumira kwenguva refu naiwo makumbo angu anga adai kuzvimba, zvakaoma hazvo. Hupenyu hwepamusha hwaisandirwadza hawo sezvo ndanga ndangogara ndakakurira kumusha ndikaroorwa ndikagara kumusha zvakare, chinhu chaindirwadza nekundiwonza ndichocho chekunzi muroyi. Brian akazouya zvake nemukadzi wake uyo anga atokurirwa. Mukadzi waBrian akatombochema coz of zvandanga ndaave. Brian ndiye akazoenda kumba kwaTawanda kuti vanotaurirana, but akadzoka akatsamwa zvisingaite. Hanzi anga adzingirwa kugedhi chaiko, ende hanzi anga atukirirwa naTawanda nemukadzi wake. Kutukwa zvese nezvemukati. Zvimwe zvaakatukwa haana kutozotaura coz zvinenge zvaitonyadzisira chaiko. Ndakachema handidi kunyepa, nhaimi chokwadi ura mapako unozvara mbavha nevaroyi. Ndanga ndisina kana kumbofunga kuti wangu mwana angadai. Brian airatidza kubatikana, ende zuva iroro akaswera akazvivharira mumba mavo mavairara nemukadzi wake. Akatoramba kana nechikafu, ini ndanga ndarambawo asi ndakazonyengererwa nemuroora wangu ndikadya, zvanga zvisingaite kuti ndiramwe chikafu chemuroora kaa. Mangwana acho Brian akangomuka achibuda, akatozodzoka kumazuva rodoka asi akadzoka aina bamukuru. Takamboti kurukurei vachindibvunza zvese zvakaitika, ini ndikavaudza zvese hazvo, nabamukuru tanga takutaura hedu but ndanga ndisingava truster coz of zvakamboitika panhamo pabaMike paya. Ehe tanga tave kutaura but ndaito feeler senge vaifarira kudonha kwangu. Aingovewo mafungiro angu hangu. Bamukuru vakazondiudza kuti vanga vafonera Tawanda and anga atove munzira kuuya, vaida kugadzirisa nyaya iyi. Ini handina chandakataura hangu, asi ndakaona kunge yanga iri good idea, pamwe akanzwawo bamukuru vachitaura aigona kuona kukangisa kwake akakumbira ruregerero, ndiwo wanga watongova munamato wangu zvangu. Akazouya Tawanda uya nemukadzi wake, tese tichibva tagara pamasofa mhuri yese, bamukuru vakabva vatanga kutaura nyaya yese semaudziro andanga ndavaita. Vapedza vakabva vabvunza Tawanda kuti panga paine chavanga vasina kutaura here chaaiziva asi iye akangoti hapana, ndokubva atonyarara akadaro. Bamukuru..." Nhai Tawanda mwanangu chitiudzawo kuti wakazvinzwa kupi kuti Mai vako vakatora chibereko chemukadzi wako vakaisa muhari. Tawanda uya akabva asimuka, mukadzi wake anga aripaside pake achibva asimukawo. Tawanda..." I can't believe kuti ndozvamandideedzera izvi, ndandichitoti mandideedza kuti mhamha vadzose chibereko chemukadzi wangu chavakatora. Manje imi mandideedzera nonsense idzi. Bamukuru..." Nhai Tawanda, gara pasi titaure kaa sevanhu vakuru. Tawanda..." Muri semi ibvai manyarara zvenyu, murume mukuru anokara mari. Musafunge kuti ndakanganwa zvamakaita pakafa baba vangu. Makatisiya tichitambura makore ese aya now nekuti mataster mari yedu makuda kukudza kamuromo kenyu muchida kutitsiura nxaa. Nyaya iyi haisi yenyu kana muchiziva zvakakunakirai budai mumba muno henyu. ..." Tawanda!! Ndakadeedzera nhaimi mwana uyu zvaaitorutsa poison chaiyo. Munhu wese akashamisika nezvaaitaura, nhaimi zvanga zviri necessary here zvaaiudza bamukuru munhu ayiedza kusolver maproblems anga ari between us. Tawanda..." Imimi ndakagara ndakuudzai kuti musataure neni kusvika madzosa chibereko chemukadzi wangu, hamunyare here kuroya zviri pachena amai imimi. Brian..." Haa Tawanda kana wakudaro wakuda kunditsvaga, hauti muroyi kuna mhamha wanzwa, nxaa you are so ungrateful. Natasha..." Ukudaro nekuti iwewe zvako zvese zvakarongeka kaa, we can all see kuti your wife is pregnant ko inini ndakaroyiwa naamai vako urikuda ndinzwe sei huh. Brian..." Maiguru hamunyare muroora kuudza amwene venyu mashoko akadaro, mwana chipo, pamwe venyu muchazovaita kana after 10 years hanty ndizvo zvinenge zvakanyorwa naMwari. Tawanda..." Iwewe ndakuona unenge unotoroya namhamha iwewe, how can you support muroyi uyu uchisiya inini mukoma wako akatadzirwa, I can't believe kuti ndanga ndichigara nevaroyi ndisingazvizive. Brian..." Wakuda kuenderera iwewe Tawanda, fokofu mhani Aidaro achienda kuna Tawanda wacho, vachibva vatanga kurwa, ukuwo Natasha achiuyawo kuzoda kurwisa mukadzi waBrian. Hameno kuti kusakwana here kwaNatasha or ipfungwa shoma coz hakuna munhu akanyatsoti kwesere angade kurwa nemunhu ane nhumbu. Bamukuru vachiedza kubata Tawanda naBrian uku ndichidzivirira mukadzi waBrian kuti asarohwe naNatasha. Yanga yaingove yowe yowe, ava varikutukana uku, vamwe vachiscreamer. Mukadzi waTawanda akapedzisira ave kutondirova mukuedza kuda kurova mukadzi waBrian, kana nechaaida kumurovera, pamwe aiitira kuti wake murume airwawo naBrian hameno pfungwa dzavo ikoko. Pandakazoona kuti zvanga zvakanyanya ndipo pandakazo screamer. ..." Zvakwana, can't you just respect imba yangu, Tawanda torana nemukadzi wako mubve pano, I can't deal with this right now. Hamungauye pamba pangu kuzondiudza mashoko nekundirova, haaa no mhani. Ndakabva ndagara pasofa ndichibva ndatanga kuchema, was this what my life was becoming. Tawanda akazobuda nemukadzi wake but akasiya atotaura kuti, "it's not over kusvika madzosa chibereko chemukadzi what". Mukadzi waBrian akasara achindi hugger uku achichemawo. Ava bamukuru vakabva vabuda vachiperekedzwa naBrian but you could see kuti mashoko avanga vaudzwa naTawanda anga avabata. Ndainzwa ndichipererwa nemweya pandaichema. Mike I was told kubasa kuti ndanga ndangove driver waLisa chete, zvakatondishamisa coz that was the first time kuita driver wemunhu one chete. So ndakaenda kunomutora achida kunoona accountant what what, infact akatotaura nyaya yacho yese but I wasn't paying that much attention kune zvaayi taura. After that ndakamuendesa kune imwe company soo, haa zvanga zvakarongeka kani pacompany ipapo, akapinda akagara kwenguva refu imomo ndokuzodzoka achiti ndimuendese kumba. After that akati ndimboenda kumba, then she took my number kuitira kuti azofona paanenge akuda service yangu. Ndakazofonerwa manheru ndichibva ndaenda, ko hanty zvaive zvebasa here. Aida kuendeswa kune imwe club so mutown, so takaenda zvedu. Takanonoka kudzoka zvekuti takasvika pamba pacho kuma Am chaiko. Lisa..." I'm so sorry for inconveniencing you Mike, I didn't know kuti ndichanonoka kudzoka zvakadai, but you know how clubs are. ..." It's okay ma'am, I mean Lisa. Goodnight I should be on my way now. Lisa..." You want to go home nguva dzino, I might not know a lot about Harare but I know kuti it's not safe to be driving nguva dzino, even isusu patanga tichibva kuclub uko hana yangu yanga iri mumaoko. ..." I know but don't worry ndosvika kumba. Lisa..." Ayehwa no, you can just sleep over pano, there are many bedrooms asingatomborare vanhu. ..." Ayehwa let me go home zvangu. Lisa..." No please I insist. Ndakambotanga ndicharamba kusvika ndazongo giver up, ndakagadzirirwa room ndichibva ndarara but makuseni kuma5 ndakabva ndatobuda. Lisa anga asati amuka hake but ndakasiya ndamunyorera katsamba kekuti azondifonera kana achida kuendeswa somewhere. Ndakangoti I had to go home kunogeza and all that. Akazondifonera achiti ndiite day off coz of time dzandanga ndapedza the previous day. So ndaswera ndakazorora zvangu ndiri kumba kwangu, the next day ndakafonerwa kuti ndiuye kuma 12. Ndakaenda kuma12 kuya ndikanzi ndipinde kumba. Ndakapinda mumba muya ndikanzi ndigare pasofa. Lisa akambobuda akadzoka ane maglasses ejuice. Ndaitoshaya kuti zvese zvaiitwa zvaive zveyi coz hanty ndanga ndangofambira basa rangu chete here. After sometime Lisa ndipo paakazotanga kutaura. End of Chapter CHAPTER 19 *Mike* Lisa..." I know we met recently and we barely know each other and what I'm going to say may come as a shock to you. Ndakangoramba ndakanyararawo since ndanga ndisina mhinduro kune zvaaitaura, and the fact that she was so serious made my heart beat fast. Ndaitotya kuti unogona kungonzi pawakabva pamba pangu ndakabva ndashaya zvakati, basa rikatondiperera kaa ipapo. So hana yangu yaitorova zvekudaro ndakamirira kunzwa zvaaitaura. Lisa..." So let me tell you a bit more about me. I own several companies around the country and outside Zimbabwe. So reason yandakauyira kuno ndeyekuti there was mismanagement pa1 of my companies iri muno muHarare, pawakambonondisiya ndikaita mahours hobho ndiripo, if you still remember that big company. Okay I don't want to lie I was shocked, yes she looked rich and all but I din't know kuti she'd own such a big company. Now hana yangu yanga yati dzikamei, ndanga ndatoona kuti nyaya yanga isiri yangu, now ndanga ndave kuda kuziva kwaienda nyaya. ..." So I ended up firing vanhu vanga vachi manager and all that. So now let me tell you zvandakudaidzira pano. She cleared her throat, then she took a sip of her juice. Ini yangu juice ndanga ndisina kana kumboibata. Lisa..." Handizive hangu kuti wakadzidza kusvika papi, and I don't know you that much but I don't know why I have this trust in you. Pandakati urare pano that day, I actually wanted to test your honesty, and handizive kuti wakangozviita for that day here or ndozvauri but atleast you showed me that I can trust and that's why I had to take this decision. Now I was confused manje, but I had to keep a straight face ndisaratidze kuti ndaifunga zvakawanda wanda. Lisa..." Mike I want you to manage my company for me, I'm not saying unenge uri manager but I want you to be the temporary CEO, whilst doing that I want you to study part time, kusvika wagraduater in business management. After you graduate you will be the permanent CEO. Mike I'm trusting you with my company and I just pray that you don't double cross me. Ndakashaya kana chekutaura, kunzwa kunge muromo wangu wanamwa. I didn't expect this, inini Mike, driver woo zvake. Ndakatomboita maminutes ndakasticker, zvairamba kunyatso sinker in kuti ndanga ndatongowana basa no interview no what, just kungo trustwa them boom ndatove CEO. Imi even uchiudza munhu zvakadaro who will believe you kutaura chokwadi, jobs like that need education, experience, money and kutova major shareholder mucompany but then inini rombe zvaro ranga rasimudzwa kubva muguruva riine nothing at all. Akatozoita zvekundigumha Lisa wacho kuti ndikwanise kuziva kuti ndanga ndichiri kumba coz ndanga ndichiri mukushamisika chaiko. Lisa..." So Mike I'd really appreciate it if you told me about yourself, then mangwana you come with your printed CV and ID then we just do a little interview just for formality but uchiziva kuti basa nderako hako. Still in shock, I managed to tell her everything about me, ko panga paine chekusiya here. Ndakanyatsomu tsanangurira zvese zvakaitika, kusiira chikoro panzira kwandaita as a sacrifice for my siblings avo vakangoti vachiona kunaka kwemari they turned against me, I told her about my mother, a mother who saw me as an enemy ini ndiri mwana wavo. Ndakamuudza about my dad, how he died and after that I slaved for vanhu vemumba medu to be where they are now, whilst inini I remained poor. It's funny how people just change munoziva, then lastly I told her about Danny, that one was a true friend. Ndichipedza nyaya yangu akatopukuta misodzi, it was a painful story and inini I was sure kuti I'd never forgive my brothers and my mother. Then iyewo akabva andiudza about her then after that we celebrated ini ndichibva ndaenda kumba but it was still hard to believe kuti Mwari anga andisvitsa pano. It's unfortunate kuti I had know one to share my joy with but haa ndakafara ndega kani. Mangwana acho ndakagadzirira zvese zvaidiwa then ndakabva ndaenda to that little interview. After that ndaka signer contract yangu, yaive yakanyora the benefits I'd get paposition yangu like a car, accomodation and the salary after that ndakaratidzwa office yangu, haa I was happy handidi kunyepa hangu. It was such a nice office and the fact that ndini ndaive pamusoro pemunhu wese. Ndakafara shame, after that ndakaendesa resignation letter yangu kucompany yandaishandira ndiri driver coz the next day ndanga ndakutotanga training yangu kucompany kwaLisa. Though ndaitya kuti ko ndikaporonga, but the fact that Lisa had faith in me and she trusted me ndoyaindipa simba. _4 MONTHS LATER_ *Lisa* ..." I don't know what to do now, we tried everything but then I have accepted my fate. Bella..." I'm a doctor yes but what if zvinhu izvi zviri spiritual. I know kuti pasara nguva diki and I don't want to lose you, you are my friend now chero zvako uri patient yangu. ...." Hameno Bella ndichaona zvekuita but right now I just want to be happy atleast ndoziva kuti mazuva angu ekupedzesera ndaigara. Apa ndagarisa muZimbabwe I have to go kunotarisa macompanies mamwe kuti arisei coz yemuno zvakarongeka. Mike is doing a great job. Bella..." Ko why usiri kumuudza chokwadi, it's been 4 months now ndakuziva and I know you like him, why not tell him. ..." You just don't get it, I'm scared you see. I don't want to leave him broken, plus handidi awone senge ndakamuita CEO coz of these feelings I have for him. Ndagara company yacho ndiri kutoisiira iye but I don't want to get involved naye ndichiziva kuti soon I will be gone forever. Misodzi yangu yakabva yangotanga kubuda yega, I was scared so scared zvekuti ndaishaya kuti ndodii, if only there was another way, but there wasn't so what was I supposed to do. Bella..." I know you are scared but I'm advising you to tell him everything before he finds out ega, ndakamuona last time pawakauya naye pano and I saw the way he looked at you, that guy loves you. Maybe arikutya kuapproacher boss hake but it will hurt you more if you break his heart nekusataura naye. ..." I will tell him, thanks friend. I just wish kuti mapills auri kundipa for pain would actually take away the pain in my heart but they can't and I'm so scared, pandanga ndisati ndasangana naye I was ready to die but now I don't want to die yet there's nothing I can do. Ndakachema that day, zvekuti Bella ended up atondiperekedza kumba. The next day ndakamira pamberi pemirror ndichipfeka wig, tumisodzi twangu twakabuda ndichifunga kuti ndiwo musoro wanga wakambozara vhudzi here uyu, wanga wangove nezuda, ndakakumidza kupfeka wig yangu ndisingade kufungisisa nezvazvo. Ndanga ndafonera Mike kuti azouye kumba kwangu after work so I was getting ready hangu kuti ndimuonewo ndakashambidzika. Akazosvika Mike uya and I couldn't even look at him, I was afraid kuti I would just cry ndikamutarisa. Kubva pandakamuita CEO there were a lot of changes pacompany, a lot of positive changes zvekuti I did not even regret my decision. He was the right leader that I needed, and now I was very sure of that. Mike..." Lisa ko what's wrong. You called me here and now wakangotarisa kuside. Did I do anything wrong. I could here kuti iye aitotyawo kuti maybe pane zvaanga atadza, ndakabva ndacheuka ndichimutarisa and at the same time misodzi yangu yakabva yangodonha. ..." I'm dying Mike and I'm so scared. You could see the panic on he's face when he asked me what was going on. Ndakamuti agare pasi ndikwanise kunyatsomutsanangurira. ..." Mike let me explain to you everything. So pandanga ndine 20 years ndakangotanga kurwara zvisinganzwisisike. I was in and out of the hospital for almost a year. Madoctors ndipo paakazoita matest then they found out kuti ndine cancer, blood cancer to be precise. I think wakazviona kuti kubva day randakasvika ndaienda kwadoctor regularly for macheckups though ndichizviziva kuti my days are numbered. Mike..." What? Tell me you are joking. Lisa there's still time you can't die now, don't tell me that there's nothing that can done, please usandiudze kudaro. ..." Unfortunately yes there's nothing that can be done. Takaita chemotherapy then ndikatonzi ndave cancer free, then I was 23. When I turned 26 zvakabva zvatanga futi, this time nothing worked, takaedza zvese chemotherapy yacho but zvakaramba. Then madoctors akabva angotanga kundipa mapills epain chete and they told me kuti I was left with only a few years or it could be months or even days kuti ndirarame. Mike..." No this cannot be happening, hazviite izvozvo. Lisa..." All these months I've been trying to be strong. To be positive infact I had already accepted my fate but meeting you being with you changed everything. I just wish kuti dai ndakasangana newe earlier, but again this is what God had planned for me so any day even tomorrow I might wake up dead. Or kungofa ndichitaura newe so. Ndakabva ndatanga kuchema, then Mike akabva auya kuzondihugger. Ndiri pakati pekuchema ndakanzwa kumusana kwangu kwave kunyorova, them ndichibva ndazvibvisa mumaoko aMike, then I saw kuti he was also crying. ..." Mike ukachema wakundiita kuti ndifeeler bad, ndifeeler like if only I had a way to heal myself. Please don't do this. Mike..." Ndoregera neyi kuchema when cancer is taking away everyone from me. First yakauraya baba vangu and now yavekuda kutora the only woman I've ever loved. Hana yangu yakarova, I was shocked, wow so Mike loved me yet I was scared to tell him I loved him and death was going to take me away from him the man I loved with everything in me. Misodzi yangu yakatanga kuyerera futi, but why nhai Mwari wangu. End of Chapter